"Do I really trust God?"
At first reaction to this question, any "good" Christian would automatically say "of course." But when it comes right down to it....do we really trust God to do what He says He will do?
This year has been a very trying time for my immediate family. My two brother's have been scheduled to go to Iraq in March of this year. We all knew that it would eventually happen, but their deployment kept being pushed back and we kinda just put it out of our minds. As 2008 progressed we knew time was getting shorter and shorter. My heart just broke and it still breaking knowing that one of them was leaving a wife behind. As a family we tried to make the most of every occasion and celebration, and spend as much time together as possible.
Finally the day arrived when they had to leave for their training. For me the hardest part was my brother Benjamin leaving. He is so young, and really hasn't got a sense of what the Lord has for him in his life. I worry about him the most. After a very tearful goodbye, I came home with a broken heart. I really hadn't had peace from God about them leaving. When I got home, I sat down at the computer and saw my Bible laying there. A still small voice asked me if I really truly trusted what it said..."Yes, I do trust what it says." At that moment I had the peace of God that passes all understaning, and I KNEW everything was going to be fine.
We say alot of time with our lips we trust the Lord, but when the rubber meets the road, do we truly trust the Lord, in our souls? If we truly trusted in the Lord in all things, I think it would drastically change our lives. What would I do with all my worry time?? LOL